Monday, 27 October 2003

time flies.. 3 years had passed.. :)
another sec friend of mine told me he'd broke off with his gf this
morning.. 3 friends actually accompanied me into singlehood again..
look like its kind of plague and im the one started it.. keke..

this morning rounding made me realise something..
though i may be more daring then some drivers, but i start to
feel under-powered.. under-controlled.. my car's lousy handling,
lousy tyres.. and i started to feel it slow.. maybe i'd brought out
the max potential of it.. its almost at the verge of drifting.. may be
i should start rounding with evo8.. hehe..

after OG, we went to mr bean.. and were greeted by a lambo and
2 meserati! what a scene..

i missed the powerboat race.. =(
i hate working weekend..


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dreamed of racing on 12:35 am

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Thursday, 23 October 2003

If I could catch a rainbow, I would do it just for you
And share with you it's beauty on the days you're feeling blue
If I could build a mountain, you could call your very own
A place to find serenity, a place to be alone..
If I could take your troubles, I would toss them in the sea
But all these things I'm finding are impossible for me
I cannot build a mountain or catch a rainbow fair
But let me be what I know best, a friend that's always there..

this poem is for all my friends who had stood by my side..
thks for being there.. :)


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Sunday, 19 October 2003

看沉默的电话它什么都不说
看电视的画面它无声的闪动
看街上的行人跟我擦肩而过
整个世界太冷漠 我没有力气再往前走

看你紧闭的嘴唇它什么都不说
看你飘忽的眼神它无情的闪躲
看你和我的回忆跟我擦肩而过
你的改变太冷漠 我没有勇气大声地说

告诉我 你不是真的离开我
你也不愿这样的夜里 把难过留给我
告诉我 你不是真的离开我
你是要惩罚我的爱让你 失去自
由告诉我．．．

告诉我－陈绮贞　词曲：陈绮贞　专辑：还是会寂寞


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Saturday, 18 October 2003

first love..

do you still remember your first love?
do you still miss your first love?
do you regret your first love..

"most of them won't come to anything.." i'd heard alot of people saying this..
i looked around my friends.. ya most of them had more then one ex.. its
most probably that they have not found their other half yet, or they had
missed it.. recently, one of my best friend got attached.. :) i'm really glad for
him.. its his first love.. and i really spent some time nagging to him.. haha..
i glad he did told me some of his problems too.. i want him to know what
love really is.. how to maintain a relationship, how to handle difficult
situations and not date blindly.. cos i believe most first-timer don't know
how to handle or maintain a rela well.. they are inexperience.. so if they
really do come acrossed their other half, they might risk losing it.. that's
really a pity then..


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Wednesday, 15 October 2003

"wat exactly are you living for?
what is your purpose?
what's mine..."

the above is an extract from one of my friend's blog.. i bet these
questions came into our mind at one time or the other.. (unless you really
don't think much.. keke.. =P) so, what are the answers? what are your
answers? i believe lots of us have different kind of answers.. i'm a
buddhist.. before being a buddhist, i used to think that i live for my
parents.. they gave life to me, love me and support me throughout
the years.. its right that i should live for them.. but do they want me to
live for them? some people live for money, some live for the sake of living,
some people live for their loves one.. but do we really need to live for
other people or thing? after being a buddhist, i found out that we
actually live for ourself.. we don't live for other people.. its juz so natural
that we didn't even realised it.. i know some of you may say: "no, i really
live for him/her.." but ask yourself, didn't you want something from him
or her? you live for your love one, hoping he/she could love you back..
isn't you living for yourself? if that love one is no longer around, would u
stop living too? each of us have our own life.. why still need to live for
others?


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dreamed of racing on 1:52 am

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Tuesday, 14 October 2003

today is the last working day of my closer colleague.. i was not feeling
well as my stomach hurts badly.. his car was in the workshop and he
asked to borrow my car.. i passed him the key without asking where
he's going.. shortly, he returned and handed me 2 tiny bottle of chinese
medicine well-known for stomach pains.. i was touched.. quite touched
actually.. hehe.. its a feeling i have not had for a long time.. maybe
i'm much more sensitive now.. i juz smile at him silly.. :)


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Tuesday, 7 October 2003

Emotional.. a word that sound so simple and harmless but actually a
stepping stone for lotsa couples.. recently, 3 of my dearest couple
friends are having rela probs.. 1 had broken up, another is at the
verge of breaking.. and im trying my very best to help the last..

i can't help the 1st.. i agreed the breakup cos it consist of third party..
i can't help the 2nd.. they had broke up and got together for more
then 10 times! she got so emotional that she almost did something silly..
but i can help the 3rd..

so, girlA told me that whenever she's feeling sad or down, she would
go out alone.. and if her bf knew it, she would always get scolded..
"why didn't he sound worry for me?"
"why didn't he come and find me and give me a big warm hug?"
"why must he scold me when i'm already feeling so sad?"

and guyA said these..
"why must she go out alone and make me worry?"
"why must she purposely seek for attention this way after a quarrel?"
"why can't she treasure herself more?"

most of the time, we look things on the surface, or only at an angle..
"is he really not worry for you at all?" ok, lets say there's another guyB
who would sound worry for his gf, who would went down to give her a
hug, who won't scold her at all.. but deep in their heart, guyA and guyB
are the same.. both love their gf, both are worried for their gf..

when emotions kick in, we often can't think or say things properly..
we do things in impulse.. girlA simple can't see that guyA is indeed
worried for her.. guyA simply can't see that girlA is testing him to
see if he care.. girlA felt that he no longer care.. guyA felt that she's
challenging him.. deep in their heart, they actually care and love
each other.. but why do all these things happened? isn't it the word
emotional..

on the other hand, being emotional is not a bad thing if we could
control it.. humans naturely have emotions, we got emotional to
destress, to feel better.. but we must learn to control it at least
to the extend of not doing silly thing..


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Wednesday, 1 October 2003

haiz.. thing came to the worst liaoz.. dad is getting out of the biz..
cos its not making money.. i'd been thinking of this day.. but juz worried
about getting back the investment.. i don't know if it was me that my
partner suggested my dad to move out.. look like im lost in both love and
career.. :| well, maybe bus transportation is still e path for me.. honestly,
i much prefer running dad's bus transport biz.. you don't need to worry
about this mth sales etc.. but i went to his car mart because his partner
was not honest with him.. hmmm, i did learned sth there.. the only
thing i regret working there is not spending enough time with my ex in
the weekend.. but if i don't work there, my dad might still know nothing
about what's really happening in the car mart..

kenji called to meet up for waffle.. i went to ecp straight after work..
and since it was still early, i start strolling down the park.. there
were large air balloon houses for children to play.. :) before i realised,
i'd walked to the spot where my ex and i last sat.. it was juz before
a beach pub where the dj would play all the dedications.. i sat
down.. and within seconds, i heard 25 minutes by MLTR.. i tried my
very best to hold back, but my tears juz dripped when the chorus
came.. God, i knew im not 25 minutes late.. im far too late.. you
don't have to remind me again.. :(

though i didn't had my dinner, but somehow im full after eating juz
half of it.. all the while, the other half is for her.. i don't know if im
really full or my subconsious told me im full.. i juz can't seem to
finish the other half.. i think this is the last time im eating waffle,
cos somehow i don't find it delicious anymore..


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