Friday, 27 February 2009

this is one of the few 'newer' english song that i like..



I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found out a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear

I've found out a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You
and the reason is You [x3]

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

The Reason - Hoobastank
Album: The Reason (2004)

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Thursday, 26 February 2009

Everyone wants happiness and does not want suffering, and happiness and suffering
depend on virtue and nonvirtue, respectively. Destructive emotions make the mind
untamed and unhappy; to the degree that these counterproductive emotions diminish,
the mind is happier, more at ease. Hence the key to happiness is whether the mind is
tamed. This means that taming the mind is a transformative practice. I look at it
this way:

In this world there are more than six billion humans, each of whom wants happiness,
not suffering. Among them, there are three groups: those who accept transformative
practice, those who deny its value and avoid it, and those who neither accept nor reject
it. Which people are happier, those who accept it, or those who reject it? It seems
to me that those who reject transformative practice generally do not see destructive
emotions as problematic, rather than viewing lust [or greed] and hatred as toxic,
they allow themselves to get roiled by these attitides. Those who accept transformative
practice, and Buddhism in particular, view lust and hatred as emotions to be avoided,
so for the most part they are more peaceful.

- His Holiness the Dalai Lama

i think that His Holiness didn't point out what 'tamed' really mean.. happiness and
suffering depend on virtue and nonvirtue this we all agreed.. but the main poison that
lead us to unhappiness and suffering is craving or desire.. and to renounce our so called
'empty' wordly possession is what taming really is.. or to at least to reduce our desire
so as to lesser our unhappiness.. as the saying go “知足常乐”..

that is unhappiness.. so what lead to happiness? compassion and unselfishness.. if a
person only think for himself, he'll never get happiness.. true happiness is obtained
when we care for others.. the saying “助人为快乐之本”.. but in today society, we're
taught otherwise, how can people live in happiness.. they're not even aware of the wrong
path they seeking.. i believe we'd all seen that status and wealth do not give you happiness..

now there're a few religions i know of that teach us to abstinence from worldly pleasures..
that is buddhism, jainism and hinduism.. Muhammad is quoted to have said, "What have
I to do with worldly things? My connection with the world is like that of a traveler resting
for a while underneath the shade of a tree and then moving on." he advised the people to
live simple lives and himself practiced great austerities.. i guess there're priests who
practise austerity in every religion..

buddhism, jainism and hinduism are similiar in a way juz like islam and christian.. hindu
acknowledged Buddha and considered buddhist as a hindu.. though buddhist don't see
themself as one.. cos of Buddha's reform movements and his refining of Hindu beliefs,
it would not be wrong to state that Buddha founded a noble religion by distilling hinduism,
and offering a commonsense approach to self-betterment to which the people can relate
easily..

asceticism is most commonly practised by monks, yogis or priests, but any individual may
choose to lead an ascetic life.. Lao Zi, Shakyamuni Gautama (who left ascetism to seek a
better way of enlightenment), Mahavir Swami, Saint Anthony, Francis of Assisi, Mahatma
Gandhi and Fr. David Augustine Baker can all be considered ascetics.. many of these men
left their families, possessions, and homes to live a mendicant life, and in the eyes of their
followers demonstrated great spiritual attainment, or enlightenment..

Shakyamuni adopted an extreme ascetic life after leaving his father's palace, where he
once lived in extreme luxury.. but he later rejected extreme asceticism because it is an
impediment to ultimate freedom from suffering.. cos he think that the right path is not to
be pure ascetic, but to be in the middle path.. a path that met the needs of the body
without crossing over into luxury and indulgence.. to be neither excessively austere nor
hedonistic.. a path to be free of all attachment as he see what he did previously is of
attachment to one's own renunciation.. this is the different from jainism and hinduism..

as a human, there's no way to be freed of all desire.. we need the basic desire to live
which is food.. when Buddha realised this, he was almost dying from his skin and bone
body.. the key is to 'put down'.. although we know we need desire but we're not attached
to it.. everyting is in a very peaceful state, not in duality but in one middle state..
there's no tasty nor un-tasty food..

this is one of the main reason why i'm a buddhist as i find that desire really lead to a
unsatisfactory life.. our greed can never be satisfied.. but desire is always there, thus we
must learn not to crave for it, to put down all the cravings.. i wonder how do we ever be
happy in heaven if we're still attach to worldly pleasures? i really don't know.. maybe
one day when you're in heaven God will somehow make you free of desire.. juz like adam
and eve.. but will history repeat where adam crave for the juicy apple again? haha..

in my opinion, heaven is juz a state of your mind, not a physical place.. if you're freed of
desire, the earth we're living on is heaven.. if your mind is not in peace, everywhere you go
is hell.. so in the end, everything run in the mind.. to get enlighten or not..

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Sunday, 22 February 2009

guess most of you know that sometimes i do write posts about buddhism.. i hope
that no matter which religion you are or a free thinker, please spend some time to
read through them.. juz give yourself a chance to know more about buddhism..
cos its these kind of post that i spend the most time and effort.. thanks.. =)
followed is a question and answer i extract from a buddhist blog..

Qn: You certainly think highly of Buddhism. I suppose you believe it is the only true
religion and that all the others are false.

Ans: No Buddhist who understands the Buddha's teaching thinks that other religions
are wrong. No one who has made a genuine effort to examine other religions with an
open mind could think like that either. The first thing you notice when you study the
different religions is just how much they have in common.

All religions acknowledge that humankind's present state is unsatisfactory. All believe
that a change of attitude and behavior is needed if the human situation is to improve.
All teach an ethics that includes love, kindness, patience, generosity and social
responsibility and all accept the existence of some form of Absolute. They use different
languages, different names and different symbols to describe and explain these things.
It is only when people cling narrow-mindedly to their particular way of seeing things
that intolerance, pride and self-righteousness arise.

Imagine an Englishman, a Frenchman, a Chinese and an Indonesian all looking at a cup.
The Englishman says,'That is a cup.' The Frenchman answers, 'No it's not. It's a tasse.'
Then the Chinese comments, 'You are both wrong. It's a pei.' Finally the Indonesian man
laughs at the others and says 'What fools you are. It's a cawan.' Then the Englishman
get a dictionary and shows it to the others saying, 'I can prove that it is a cup. My
dictionary says so.' 'Then your dictionary is wrong,' says the Frenchman, 'because my
dictionary clearly says it is a tasse.' The Chinese scoffs; 'My dictionary says it's a pei
and my dictionary is thousands of years older than yours so it must be right. And besides,
more people speak Chinese than any other language, so it must be a pei.'

While they are squabbling and arguing with each other, another man comes up, drinks
from the cup and then says to the others, 'Whether you call it a cup, a tasse, a pei or
a cawan, the purpose of the cup is to hold water so that it can be drunk. Stop arguing
and drink, stop squabbling and refresh your thirst.' This is the Buddhist attitude to
other religions.

after reading this i thought to myself, how about the free thinker? so the free thinker
don't believe that the cup is used to hold water and in turn can quenched one's thirst?
many so called free thinkers are actually not free thinkers, but they are lazy to think..
just because they do not want to think seriously and ponder about the meaning of their
existence they say they are free thinkers.. there is no room for these kinds of thinkers
in buddhism.. buddhism encourages people to think freely but deeply and without bias..

the buddha is a teacher, and has given full freedom for man to think freely without
depending on the concept of a god, buddha or any teacher to understand the truth..
that is freedom.. i'd mentioned before that buddha said "think and ponder over all my
teachings before you believe in anything.." buddhism need one to understand and
get enlightened by oneself, not simply through faith.. gain wisdom and get enlightened
is the key..

when one is a free thinker will he do bad deeds cause he believe that he will not get any
punishment as long as he is not caught by the law? similarly, will he do good deeds thinking
that he will have a better future or even born into a better afterlife? people who are
free thinker underestimate the power of faith.. its what make human retain humality..
its what bring peace across the world.. as mentioned before all religions teach people
good and have some beliefs in doing good deeds.. does any scientist ask you to do good?
what happen if all the people in this world are free thinker? no one will do anything good
cos they believe that doing good bring them to nowhere.. will the world get any better?
does scientist teach you to have a more meaningful life? or to live more happily?

maybe its time for the free thinker to put down his stubbornness and try to be more
open to a religion.. i always think that buddhism is good for free thinker.. cos it is the most
scientific religion.. and there're scientists who are researching on buddhism.. may all of
us continue to follow our faith and live a happy spiritual life.. :)

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johnson held his ROM celebration at downtown east chalet yesterday..
something new as i think very few people will do that.. anyway, feel glad
for him.. oh i met his dad for the first time and his dad is someone very
sociable.. unlike our traditional dad who are fierce-looking? hard to
approach? unfriendly? or maybe only my dad is like that.. haha..

he can talk freely with his dad regarding fast cars, car mods etc.. if i
gonna talk to my dad these, first thing from him is "what? you gonna
waste money on your car again?" lolz.. i laugh because he spent quite an
amount to mod his evo.. having a conversation with my dad is never
enjoyable.. so that night i do envy him for having such a nice daddy..
who willingly to spend money for his new car..

its good in a way too.. as in my dad trained me to buy thing i can only
afford myself.. makes me know the important of money and earning
money is not easy.. am i trying to self-console.. hahas.. ok pictures now..

happy birthday to tiff.. so fast again.. its like i only wish her not long
ago.. this show how fast woman age.. =p


the new couple..


kenji, doesn't he look like edison in this pic? haha..


daphane, smitten by 'edison'.. =p


the next one to wed?


daniel.. i like this pic.. got coolness + bengness aura.. hahaha..


serena, this will be 2009 sweetest pic taken..


happy man bbqing for us..


though married but still a child at heart.. =)


this is typical like father like son.. no explaination needed..

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Friday, 20 February 2009

this morning STI almost touching 1600.. the last lowest is 1500+ last year..
i guess it may even go lower this time thanks to the recent news release of
Temasek lost of S$50 billions.. in total, GIC had lost S$200 billions! and that's the
money from you and me, the taxpayers.. cheers!

shares price of US banks keep falling.. yesterday Citigroup and Bank of
America stocks fell further - both stocks fell 14% in one day.. now s'poreans are
complaining that the govt. is making bad decisions investing in these banks..
while most of the investment community knew that they were in trouble and
extremely risky, they continuously denied that mistakes were made and insisted
that they are long term investments.. like 10, 20 or 30 years.. maybe some of
us can't even see it.. to make thing worse, revelations in the past few days indicate
that there is a good chance that major banks in US will be nationalised.. even if
they're not nationalised, there's a high chance that they will go bankrupt..

the consolation: s'pore is filthy rich! thanks to the various ways and legally
right methods of obtaining money from citizens.. (we're a 'fine' country..)
we have a reserve of S$550 billions.. with S$350 billions left after the loss,
we're still able to survive.. govt. recently forked out S$5 billions as a rescue plan..
i bet you'd received a letter from CPF stating that a certain amount of money
will be credited into your account on march and october.. to them its peanut,
but to the needy, it may help them for that few months in search of a job..

another good news, LTA announced that public transport fare will be reduced..
so long for the reduction to happen since the fall of oil price.. for some reason,
when oil price shoot up, they will always seem to react faster for fare increment..
haha..

ok, enough of all these.. i don't really like to blog about politics and finance..
but this time the impact on us is really too much.. let's hope for the best..

happy birtday to heng and zandra..

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Thursday, 19 February 2009

Mr Big is another rock band i listen to in the early 90s.. but these are
the only 2 songs i familiar with cos they're aired on 98.7FM.. i can't remember
how they performed in the chart.. i used to have a book and wrote down the
top 10 songs every week.. but i lost it.. haha.. -_-



To Be With You - Mr Big
Written by Eric Martin & David Grahame
Album - Lean onto it (1991)



Wild World - Mr Big (Ori. by Cat Stevens)
Written by Cat Stevens
Album - Bump Ahead (1993)

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Wednesday, 18 February 2009

Whats Love....




TO MY FRIENDS WHO ARE SINGLE... Love is like a butterfly... The more you
chase it, the more it eludes you... But if you just let it fly, it will come to you when you
least expect it... Love can make you happy but often it hurts, but love's only special when
you give it to someone who is really worth it... So take your time and choose the best...

TO MY FRIENDS WHO ARE NOT SO SINGLE... Love isn't about becoming somebody
else's 'perfect person.'... It's about finding someone who helps you become the best
person you can be...

TO MY FRIENDS WHO ARE A PLAYBOY... Never say 'I love you' if you don't care...
Never talk about feelings if they aren't there... Never touch a life if you mean to
break a heart... Never look in the eye when all you do is lie... The cruelest thing
a guy can do to a girl is to let her fall in love when he doesn't intend to catch her fall
and it works both ways...

TO MY FRIENDS WHO ARE MARRIED... Love is not about 'it's your fault', but 'I'm
sorry.'... Not 'where are you', but 'I'm right here.'... Not 'how could you', but
'I understand.'... Not 'I wish you were', but 'I'm thankful you are...

TO MY FRIENDS WHO ARE ENGAGED... The true measure of compatibility is not the
years spent together but how good you are for each other...

TO MY FRIENDS WHO ARE HEARTBROKEN... Heartbreaks last as long as you want and
cut as deep as you allow them to go... The challenge is not how to survive heartbreaks
but to learn from them...

TO MY FRIENDS WHO ARE NAIVE... How to be in love: Fall but don't stumble, be
consistent but not too persistent, share and never be unfair, understand and try not
to demand, and get hurt but never keep the pain...

TO MY FRIENDS WHO ARE POSSESSIVE... It breaks your heart to see the one you love
happy with someone else but it's more painful to know that the one you love is
unhappy with you...

TO MY FRIENDS WHO ARE AFRAID TO CONFESS... Love hurts when you break up with
someone... It hurts even more when someone breaks up with you... But love hurts the
most when the person you love has no idea how you feel...

TO MY FRIENDS WHO ARE STILL HOLDING ON... A sad thing about life is when you
meet someone and fall in love, only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be
and that you have wasted years on someone who wasn't worth it... If he isn't worth
it now, he's not going to be worth it a year or 10 years from now. Let go.....

TO ALL MY FRIENDS....... Love shld be honest, strong, mature, never-changing,
uplifting, protective, encouraging, rewarding and unselfish...

Love doesn't make the world go "round" love is what makes the ride worthwhile.
One of life's greatest happiness is being able to love and loved eternally.

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Tuesday, 17 February 2009

Realisation: Is There Such Thing as Big or Small?


A six-inch line is short relative to an eight-inch line.
An eight-inch line is short relative to a ten-inch line.

All suffering arise from delusion, our failure to see things as they really are.
From delusion arise two more roots of suffering - attachment and aversion.
Take for example, when the Jones' have a bigger car, one might become jealous
and suffer due to attachment to wanting a bigger car for oneself, coupled with
aversion that others have it instead of you. All this is related to delusion
because the sizes of cars are relative. A car is smaller or bigger only in
comparison to another. Even if one gets a car bigger than one's present,
chances are that there is an even bigger car out there. In short, suffering
from needless comparison of the relative is foolish.

Buddhist 'emptiness' is taught in many ways. For instance, that which is relative
in nature is intrinsically empty (or void) of any inherent self-characteristics.
For instance, while there are smaller and bigger cars conventionally, their
definitions by sizes are so only when compared 'among themselves'; never so
when 'by themselves'. They can be smaller or bigger only relatively; but never
absolutely. 'Big' and 'small' thus co-define each other. Without one, the other
simply does not make any sense. Likewise, this applies to all other relative
or dualistic characteristics, such as high and low, rich and poor, male and female.

However, this is not to say that which is big or small does not exist. They all
do - but only relatively; not ultimately. The notions of big and small are thus
dependently originated from each other, empty of value in themselves.
The worldly tend to fight tooth and nail over the relative, while the wise who
understand the unsubstantiality of the relative are calmly detached. Of course,
the wise still have to relate to the relative for practical and social reasons.
But even so, they are never caught up in conflicts within themselves or with
others over them. If not, they would be 'relatively unwise', still far from
ultimate wisdom! - Shen Shi'an

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Monday, 16 February 2009

the live version.. see how Thom Yorke have aged down the years..
1994 ver embedding is disabled, u have to click on it again to
open a new windows to youtube..





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Sunday, 15 February 2009

i remembered in early 90s my brother and i used to get addicted to the
friday night 8pm, Perfect 10 98.7FM Top 10 on 10.. Creep is one of the song
i like.. the alternate rock style is something very different from other
songs.. even the lyrics is weird.. and somehow it got stucked in the
top 5 and just can't climbed up to the top.. i think it did went up to
no.1 in the end for juz a week.. anyone can remember?



When you were here before
Couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel
Your skin makes me cry
You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
And I wish I was special
You're so fuckin' special

But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo.
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here.

I don't care if it hurts
I want to have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul
I want you to notice
When I'm not around
You're so fuckin' special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo.
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here.

She's running out again,
She's running out
She's run run run running out...

Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You're so fuckin' special
I wish I was special...

But I'm a creep, I'm a weirdo,
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here.
I don't belong here.

Radiohead - Creep
Composed & Written by Radiohead, Albert Hammond, Mike Hazlewood
Album: Pablo Honey (1993), Capitol Records

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Saturday, 14 February 2009

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Friday, 13 February 2009

随着经济的不景气，商家只好乘机在即将到来的情人节大赚一笔。
什么晚餐配套的要上百块，高贵的还上千元，买花也要花个七八十块。
我想为什么现在的爱情好像是变得用金钱来衡量似的。是不是不送花，
不上昂贵的餐馆享用烛光晚餐就不能显出对爱人的爱意？

奇怪的是虽然昂贵，但这些配套都早已完全被预订。从我报，一位女作者
写到“都是女人的虚荣心造成这些商家有机可得。”真的是这样吗？
是的，我是同意新加坡女性很多是这样，但我想也是因为男人的虚荣心，
所以他们也会以为只有花很多钱才能显出自己的爱。

也有可能男人觉得想在这特别的节日给女伴一些惊喜，一个浪漫的回忆，
所以不介意花这笔钱来增进彼此的感情。我个人觉得虽然生活离不开金钱，
但是感情最好不要建立在金钱上，这样感情才会真实。

所以我建议你借用这次的金融风暴，来测一测你感情的真诚度。随便
带你的另一半到食阁用餐， 自己用手做一个小礼物给她，看看她的反应。
如果她还是很开心的话，那恭喜你了。如果你的另一半大发雷霆，
那也不用惊讶，哈哈。只需想一想明年的情人节还要不要和同一个人
度过。:p

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Thursday, 12 February 2009

有些事我沒說　但我有感覺
有些事我沒說　但我知道結果
有些事我沒說　但你有感覺
有些事我沒說　但你知道結果

有一天我會　插上翅膀飛
有一天我會　張開雙眼看
有一天我會　見到我的夢中有誰
有一天我會　飛過世界的背

當太陽昇起的那一天　你再看我一遍
你將會發現我　所有的改變

有一天我會－蔡淳佳　詞：楊立德　曲：陳曉霞　專輯：有一天我會

《有一天我會》原唱張瓊瑤，蔡淳佳重新演繹這首歌。這首歌不像現在的一些流行音樂那樣，
歌詞很簡單，可是寓意深長。

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Wednesday, 11 February 2009

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Sunday, 8 February 2009

feeling的留言让我觉得我应该把这篇文章打出来。她说的对。现在的父母很现实
又太过溺爱自己的孩子。他们只想着赚钱，买车子，注重世俗的东西，多少个是
注重孩子的人格品德？教导孩子的也是数学科学科目，没有会教好公民课的。为什么？
因为好公民不用考试，就算不及格，老师也不会睬你。新加坡教育部的教育政策就是
一个失败。只教你怎么赚钱，不教你怎么做人。

父母最常唠叨：“你不好好读书，以后就找不到工作赚不到钱。”没办法，这个社会
就是这样现实。不过太注重现实，人的品格就下滑了。人人都只为了自己的利益，
不管他人的死活。造成父母双双都在外工作变得很少时间和孩子沟通和教导他们。
就算有时间也不懂得怎么教，以为只给孩子金钱就够了，很糟糕，教出来的孩子
可想而知。

父母亲也以为把孩子交给学校就可以了，孩子毕业后就懂得怎么做人懂得怎么
赚钱。但现在学校的老师其实个个都糟糕透顶！真正用心教导学生的老师已经
绝种了。似乎每一个老师都是为了名利和在学校的地位，可以为了让自己升职
不择手段。所以你知道为什么现在的学生比以前糟糕。老师都已经变质了，还能
教出什么好学生。

净空法师曾经说现在的教育不如古时。中国古时的基本教育是教怎么做人。小学
时是背诵课文，课文的内容的是教育人品修养等等。所以中国几千年来都受很好的
统治，从不去侵犯其他国家，也很少有严重的罪案。似乎没有听过孩童杀害父母的。
再看看美国，美国在2007年里每天平均的犯罪案高达30827起。看清楚是每一天！
而且每一年都在增加。为什么会这样？教育的分别。美国和一些西方国家已经在
研究中国古时的教育。而中国却撇下旧时的教育，慢慢的西方化。所以说中国很快
就会像美国那样了。

新加坡也是受西方的教育，为什么就没有美国那么糟？因为新加坡人怕死嘛！哈哈！
其实是因为新加坡政府厉害，真的很厉害。他们把国家治理的好好的，失业率低，
不让人民陷入水深火日的生活，犯罪案也就自然低。况且新加坡那么小，是逃不掉的。
哈哈！

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Friday, 6 February 2009

很久以前我和一位网上认识的女性朋友在icq聊天，她说所有的男人都是大男人。
我便和她起了争论。在她的眼里男人都看不起女人，说为什么社会里的大角色
都是男人，说因为男人大男人所以才会造成这样的局面。每个人都有不同的角色，
有些事情男人做的比较好，有些女人做的比较好，为什么女人每样都想做呢？
当时我觉得她很固执，有点幼稚。

她要男女平等，要公平。这里有我曾经谈过男女平等的文章。世界上那有公平的？
这个世间一开始就是不公平。每个人都有自己的遭遇。不要说男女，就是男男
也是不平等。有些男人长得英俊潇洒，一生出来就是大富大贵，有些像我这样
长得不讨好，家境不富裕，我又向谁去要公平？还有比我更糟的，在非洲流浪
挨饿的孩童，他们有公平？

说回男女，女人真的要男女平等想要当女强人吗？其实不然。我知道有些女人
不是那样想的。她们还是希望被男人保护疼爱，希望自己的男人事业比自己好。
不会和自己的男人比较，但可能希望他和别的男人比较。哈哈。

女人其实有一个角色最伟大了，男人根本比不了，就是母亲的角色。为何女人
不那么觉得呢？总以为男人干的就是大事，女人干的就是卑贱的活？虽然我是男人，
但我要说女人做母亲的角色超越男人的任何一个！就算一个男人是皇帝，
他的角色在人人眼里是最大的，但没有皇帝的母亲，他能有今天吗？

我也是比较喜欢娇小的女人，性格不要那么强，让我也可以保护她，照顾她。
女人嘛，如果和男人一样的话，那还叫女人吗？我想大多男人的看法都和我的
一样吧。可能只有少数或那些吃软饭的男人会喜欢女强人。女人太强的话，
会把男人吓走的。没有男人敢来追妳，妳还想当女强人吗？

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dreamed of racing on 12:48 pm

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Tuesday, 3 February 2009

Angel by Sarah McLachlan



Spend all your time waiting
For that second chance
For a break that would make it okay
There's always one reason
To feel not good enough
And it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
Oh beautiful release
Memory seeps from my veins
Let me be empty
And weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight

In the arms of an angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort there

So tired of the straight line
And everywhere you turn
There's vultures and thieves at your back
And the storm keeps on twisting
You keep on building the lie
That you make up for all that you lack
It don't make no difference
Escaping one last time
It's easier to believe in this sweet madness oh
This glorious sadness that brings me to my knees

In the arms of an angel
Fly away from here
From this dark cold hotel room
And the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage
Of your silent reverie
You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort there
You're in the arms of the angel
May you find some comfort here

Album: Surfacing
Composed & Written: Sarah McLachlan

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dreamed of racing on 10:42 am

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Monday, 2 February 2009

fen's bday is around the corner.. i saw him on msn and decided to msg him..
and we have a very serious talk.. i didn't know that he can be so dead
serious in this for the past 12 yrs i'd know him..

msn conversation..

02/02/2009 12:20:55 AM dullstar ah fen bday do wat
02/02/2009 12:22:05 AM ah fen dullstar zbl
02/02/2009 12:23:31 AM dullstar ah fen wan to zo some lan?
02/02/2009 12:23:54 AM ah fen dullstar haha do what
02/02/2009 12:24:15 AM dullstar ah fen jio girls.
02/02/2009 12:24:59 AM ah fen dullstar jio who
02/02/2009 12:26:13 AM dullstar ah fen any1..
02/02/2009 12:26:25 AM dullstar ah fen go jio uptown girl
02/02/2009 12:26:36 AM ah fen dullstar gin jio
02/02/2009 12:28:26 AM dullstar ah fen gin jio? banana?
02/02/2009 12:29:01 AM ah fen dullstar yah
02/02/2009 12:30:07 AM dullstar ah fen yaya papaya la.. dun tok cock leh..
02/02/2009 12:32:39 AM ah fen dullstar hahah
02/02/2009 12:33:12 AM dullstar ah fen come la, bday i giv u 1 bday kiss steady bo..
02/02/2009 12:34:58 AM ah fen dullstar nahia

for those who don't know the meaning of nahia.. its beyond explaination
and you would have to tok cock with him for at least 3 yrs to get it..
haha ok, thats only the 1st 15 mins of our conversation.. serious stuff now..

i told him that i'd a friend who used to be a vegetarian.. but she go back
to consume meat after realising that she is not geting enough nutrients..
her body grew weaker after she becoming a vegetarian.. fyi, fen is a vegetable
vegetarian and seem to look healthy.. and to be a vegetarian is not easy..
one need to becareful of what he eat.. some vegetable must be consumed to
gain the protein while some are to be avoided..

i then share with him why i'm still not a vegetable.. and as i expected,
arrows and cannons started to shoot from bukit gombak to amk.. many people
round the world are not aware of the consequences for consuming meat..
starvation and global warming are the obvious effects.. global warming is
very serious now although no one really bother or even aware of it..

environmentalists said that global warming had caused some irrecoverable
damaged to our dear earth.. even if we somehow managed to stop all the
carbon emission(which is impossible), earth will only show sense of recovery
after year 3000.. i then told fen that by year 3000, earth already come to
an end.. and he said year 3000? no need that long.. i actually agree with
him.. though human are now trying to use technology to combat global
warming.. --> http://www.princeton.edu/pr/news/04/q3/0812-carbon.htm

one of the reason i gave him is that its troublesome to be a vegetarian..
its a lame excuse.. but its indeed what i feel so.. but whenever i could
have a vegetarian meal, i will always try to..

my family is not vegetarian and i would have to ask my mom to specially
prepare a vegetarian meal for me.. or to eat outside where there isn't any
eating place near my house that sell vegetarian food.. which mean i need
to go to amk central for dinner and eat alone every night.. what matter
more is that i may no longer have the chance to eat together with my
family.. for friends who know me long, they would know that i always try
to eat at home.. cos whenever i eat at home, mom will feel happy.. to me
its a kind of filial act to her.. ok, maybe it sound like another lame
excuse to you.. hahas..

also, many people mistaken that a buddhist must be vegetarian.. 2500 years
ago, buddha himself used to eat meat.. but he encourage people to be vegetarian
to cultivate compassion and not to kill.. you may wonder why there is still
some highly honoured lamas are meat-eater.. this is a very profound issue..
for an enlighten being.. what one eat no longer matter.. cos mentally,
he did not see himself eating.. he eat merely to stay alive and did not have
any greed in devouring anything.. all the physical things are nothing but
emptiness.. he is physically eating meat, yet he is not eating any meat..

maybe you start to feel that i sound crazy.. heard of the crazy monk 济癫和尚?
他的口头堂：酒肉穿肠过，佛在我心中。but how many of us can really reach that
stage of enlightenment.. thus all buddhists should cultivate compassion..
and by doing so, they should refrain from eating meat..

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dreamed of racing on 7:33 pm

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this is the 3rd shooting outing with fx with my A300..
weather was good with a little of 10 mins drizzling..
few of the photos i like are the monkeys(funny expression)
and the 1st one you see below.. i know its lame.. haha..
anyway, enjoy the pictures.. =)







































more pictures..

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dreamed of racing on 6:45 pm

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