Wednesday, 30 January 2013

只有你相了解相了解阮的一切
外艰苦外伤悲　咱拢有经过
好曰子歹日子　彼款滋味在人体会
心若是偎做伙　阮绝对无怨嗟

只有你相了解相了解我是你的
有外甜有外酸　请你放在心底
你陪我行到这　彼款滋味在人体会
将付出当作机会　爱绝对无收回

啊　难分难离咱分开目屎无块觅
虽然心疼阮甘愿用一生等待来医
甭讲你置叨位　甭劝阮放袂记
我甘愿一个人　惦惦思念你

啊　难分难离咱分开为着爱一字
受伤的心阮甘愿用一生思念来缝
甭讲你置叨位　甭劝阮放袂记
我甘愿一个人　惦惦思念你

南台湾小姑娘－难分难离　作词：谢明训　作曲：许卿燿　编曲：王豫民　专辑：难分难离　发行时间：1999年04月01日

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Thursday, 24 January 2013

How much resistance are you in now? Our psychological defenses are extremely good
at hiding this from us; by definition, stored-up emotions are the ones we can’t feel.
However, resistance gives rise to a telltale behavior pattern—control. Having to be in
control is a compulsion rooted in fear and threat.

Give yourself a point for each statement that applies to you frequently, most of the time,
or almost always. Some of the statements do not sound very flattering, but try to be as
candid and honest about yourself as you can.

Start the quiz..

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Saturday, 19 January 2013

A LETTER IN THE LOST WALLET

As I walked home one freezing day, I stumbled on a wallet someone had lost in the street.
I picked it up and looked inside to find some identification so I could call the owner.
But the wallet contained only three dollars and a crumpled letter that looked as if it
had been in there for years.

The envelope was worn and the only thing that was legible on it was the return address.
I started to open the letter, hoping to find some clue. Then I saw the dateline–1924.
The letter had been written almost sixty years ago.

It was written in a beautiful feminine handwriting on powder blue stationery with a little
flower in the left-hand corner. It was a “Dear John” letter that told the recipient, whose
name appeared to be Michael, that the writer could not see him any more because her
mother forbade it. Even so, she wrote that she would always love him. It was signed,
Hannah.

It was a beautiful letter, but there was no way except for the name Michael, that the
owner could be identified. Maybe if I called information,the operator could find a phone
listing for the address on the envelope.

“Operator,” I began, “this is an unusual request. I’m trying to find the owner of a wallet
that I found. Is there anyway you can tell me if there is a phone number for an address
that was on an envelope in the wallet?” She suggested I speak with her supervisor, who
hesitated for a moment then said, “Well, there is a phone listing at that address, but I can’t
give you the number.” She said, as a courtesy, she would call that number, explain my
story and would ask them if they wanted her to connect me. I waited a few minutes and
then she was back on the line. “I have a party who will speak with you.”

I asked the woman on the other end of the line if she knew anyone by the name of Hannah.
She gasped, “Oh! We bought this house from a family who had a daughter named Hannah.
But that was 30 years ago!” “Would you know where that family could be located now?”
I asked. “I remember that Hannah had to place her mother in a nursing home some years
ago,” the woman said. “Maybe if you got in touch with them they might be able to track
down the daughter.”

She gave me the name of the nursing home and I called the number. They told me the old
lady had passed away some years ago but they did have a phone number for where they
thought the daughter might be living. I thanked them and phoned. The woman who answered
explained that Hannah herself was now living in a nursing home.

This whole thing was stupid, I thought to myself. Why was I making such a big deal over
finding the owner of a wallet that had only three dollars and a letter that was almost 60 years
old? Nevertheless, I called the nursing home in which Hannah was supposed to be living and
the man who answered the phone told me, “Yes, Hannah is staying with us.”

Even though it was already 10 p.m., I asked if I could come by to see her. “Well,” he said
hesitatingly, “if you want to take a chance, she might be in the day room watching television.”
I thanked him and drove over to the nursing home. The night nurse and a guard greeted me
at the door. We went up to the third floor of the large building. In the day room, the nurse
introduced me to Hannah.

She was a sweet, silver-haired old timer with a warm smile and a twinkle in her eye. I told her
about finding the wallet and showed her the letter. The second she saw the powder blue
envelope with that little flower on the left, she tooka deep breath and said, “Young man,
this letter was the last contact I ever had with Michael.”

She looked away for a moment deep in thought and then said Softly, “I loved him very much.
But I was only 16 at the time and my mother felt I was too young. Oh, he was so handsome.
He looked like Sean Connery, the actor.” “Yes,” she continued. “Michael Goldstein was a
wonderful person. If youshould find him, tell him I think of him often. And,” she hesitated for
amoment, almost biting her lip, “tell him I still love him. You know,” she said smiling as tears
began to well up in her eyes, “I never did marry. I guess no one ever matched up to Michael…”

I thanked Hannah and said goodbye. I took the elevator to the first floor and as I stood by
the door, the guard there asked, “Was the old lady able to help you?” I told him she had
 given me a lead. “At least I have a last name. But I think I’ll let it go for a while. I spent
almost the whole day trying to find the owner of this wallet.”

I had taken out the wallet, which was a simple brown leather case with red lacing on the side.
When the guard saw it, he said, “Hey, wait a minute! That’s Mr. Goldstein’s wallet. I’d know
it anywhere with that bright red lacing. He’s always losing that wallet. I must have found it in
the halls at least three times.” “Who’s Mr. Goldstein?” I asked as my hand began to shake.
“He’s one of the old timers on the 8th floor. That’s Mike Goldstein’s wallet for sure. He must
have lost it on one of his walks.”

I thanked the guard and quickly ran back to the nurse’s office. I told her what the guard had
said. We went back to the elevator and got on. I prayed that Mr. Goldstein would be up.
On the eighth floor, the floor nurse said, “I think he’s still in the day room. He likes to read
at night. He’s a darling old man.”

We went to the only room that had any lights on and there was a man reading a book.
The nurse went over to him and asked if he had lost his wallet. Mr. Goldstein looked up
with surprise, put his hand in his back pocket and said, “Oh, it is missing!” “This kind
gentleman found a wallet and we wondered if it could be yours?” I handed Mr. Goldstein
the wallet and the second he saw it, he smiled with relief and said, “Yes, that’s it! It must
have dropped out of my pocket this afternoon. I want to give you a reward.”

“No, thank you,” I said. “But I have to tell you something. I read the letter in the hope of
finding out who owned the wallet.” The smile on his face suddenly disappeared. “You read
that letter?” “Not only did I read it, I think I know where Hannah is.”

He suddenly grew pale. “Hannah? You know where she is? How is she? Is she still as pretty
as she was? Please, please tell me,” he begged. “She’s fine…just as pretty as when you knew
her.” I said softly.

The old man smiled with anticipation and asked, “Could you tell me where she is? I want to
call her tomorrow.” He grabbed my hand and said, “You know something, mister, I was so
in love with that girl that when that letter came, my life literally ended. I never married. I guess
I’ve always loved her.” “Mr. Goldstein,” I said, “Come with me.”

We took the elevator down to the third floor. The hallways were darkened and only one or
two little night-lights lit our way to the day room where Hannah was sitting alone watching the
television. The nurse walked over to her. “Hannah,” she said softly, pointing to Michael, who
was waiting with me in the doorway. “Do you know this man?”

She adjusted her glasses, looked for a moment, but didn’t say a word.Michael said softly,
almost in a whisper, “Hannah, it’s Michael. Do you remember me?” She gasped, “Michael!
I don’t believe it! Michael! It’s you! My Michael!” He walked slowly towards her and they
embraced. The nurse and I left with tears streaming down our faces.

“See,” I said. “See how the Good Lord works! If it’s meant to be, it will be.” About three
weeks later I got a call at my office from the nursing home. “Can you break away on Sunday
to attend a wedding? Michael and Hannah are going to tie the knot!”

It was a beautiful wedding with all the people at the nursing home dressed up to join in the
celebration. Hannah wore a light beige dress and looked beautiful. Michael wore a dark blue
suit and stood tall. They made me their best man. The hospital gave them their own room and
if you ever wanted to see a 76-year-old bride and a 79-year-old groom acting like two
teenagers, you had to see this couple. A perfect ending for a love affair that had lasted nearly
60 years.

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準時站在世界中央 迫不及待釋放
我越來越燦爛的光芒 不用 為我呐喊 只要欣賞

還有多少節奏等著雙手雙腳再捧場
還有多少音符準備為喉嚨去瘙癢
每一寸皮膚都比眼睛更需要流汗
身體才會發出光

不管 眼色 多暗 不管 風聲 多慌
不管 誰要 退場 我舞步不亂

準時站在世界中央 迫不及待釋放
我越來越燦爛的光芒 不用 為我呐喊 只要欣賞

隨便站在什麼地方 都要盡情綻放
我為你準備好的風光 不用 為我瘋狂 你也一樣

崇拜過的偶像還有多少仍然是偶像
堅持過的方向還用不用再找方向
不如就讓我忘掉這個世界多混亂
讓自己拼命發光

就算 琴弦 流汗 就算 琴鍵 流浪
就算 心聲 無常 用歌聲撐場

SHE - 迫不及待 2013台灣颩燈會形象主題曲
曲：顏小健　詞：藍小邪　編曲：JerryC

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Thursday, 17 January 2013

10 years of blogging.. yeah.. time flies like there's no tomorrow? lolz.. what bs is that..
10 years ok??! i start blogging after blogspot come out shortly, that make me start
blogging earlier then xiaxue or most famous bloggers.. :P

glancing back my 10 years.. so many things happened.. i barely remember those
earlier posts in my blog is like.. so pessimistic? boring? not that its any interesting now..
haha.. but i admit that its not easy to continue blogging for so long.. many of my
"blogger friends" stopped halfway.. i used to have quite a no of blogger friends
and we used to follow on each other blog.. now i follow none.. and i guess none
follow mine too..

oh talking about following blogs, my last ex even quarrel with me over this.. its not like
i'm just starting to follow people blog, its been years.. and its not like i only follow
female bloggers, i follow many male bloggers too.. anyway, blog following is not the
in thing now, twitter then is..

a lot of things happened in the past 10 years.. in short, i changed 3 jobs, had 3
relationships, visited 3 countries, visited china 3 times, have more faiths in the triple
gems.. i'm glad that i gained dharma knowledge these years and improve myself..
i take the 5 precepts, i learn to have more patience, more enlighten, able to better
control my temper and negative emotions.. and of course happier and more positive..
i learn to enjoy my life.. yea, do you enjoy your life? it seem so simple yet many
people do not know how to enjoy their life.. many live in unhappiness, in stress or
worse in pains.. happy or unhappy is just a different in perception, or the chinese
saying 一念之差。

since young, i like to be unique, or at least different from the majority.. its a strange
habit of mine.. and indeed, my friends used to say that i'm living in my own world..
my thinking is different from many of my friends.. even till now, i find very little
people having the same frequency as me.. now, don't misunderstood, i'm not a
weirdo lolz.. i can click with most peoples, but very few people can click with me..
that make me having many friends, but very few close to me or understand me..
i just different from many of the guys you see on the street..

i guess its due to my maturity and personality.. i start working on my first job at
the age of 14.. i get working experiences at a young age, i got scolded, humiliated
by customers, and learn how to handle people.. which make me feel my poly
mates are childish.. well, now i know that they're not, its that i'd grown out of
childishness earlier.. which is not a good thing at a certain degree.. but luckily,
my sense of humour never fail me.. haha.. if not, my poly life will be so damn
boring..

maybe due to my maturity, 2 of my ex gfs are older then me, one is even 5 years
older.. and many times, its was i who help them analyse and make the correct
decision.. so i wanted to tell those ladies who insist that they will only go out with
someone older.. maturity is independent of age.. really..

i am not a strict vegetarian, but i eat mostly vegetables and fruits in recent years..
not just for my health, but for the environment and the welfare of animals.. i don't
see any different between consuming pork and dog.. so i really can't understand
the mentality of dog / cat lovers, who protest against pet abuse yet consume other
animals..

i don't smoke or drink.. i guess just based on these 2 already put me into the
minority table.. i don't gamble, ons, or play around.. i have my own principles
and sex without love is a no no to me.. i met a girl online who was being lied to
by guys and went through a lot of hurts and pains.. her fiance back off their
marriage and she lost the deposit she paid for BTO flat..she keep telling me
that she hate those slutty girls who flirt.. she said all her ex bfs left her for those
young slutty girls who snatch her ex bfs..

i feel like telling her that these kind of bf as might as well don't want.. but i don't
know the whole story, i only hear from her side, so i do not want to make any
assumption.. i myself hate people who assume and pass judgement on people
without understanding the situation.. we seems to kick off well at first i really feel
for her until she start flirting with me.. lolz.. isn't she another girl who like to flirt?
its just the pot calling the kettle black.. i myself do not like flirty people too..

so i was like.. kind of disappointed.. anyway she don't believe that there're
guy with integrity and won't be give in to ons.. she questioned me that will i
resist, if a sexy and slutty young girl want a ons.. i say yes.. she don't believe..
in fact i think most people reading this won't believe either.. lolz.. but its doesn't
matter, really.. i don't need anyone to believe.. alright, maybe that one person,
my future wife.. in fact, honestly, i do have a girl who hint for a ons before..
but i act blur and turn her down.. i do not want to jeopardise our friendship..

by the way, i'm not handsome or look like some hunks.. thus i can only attract
girls with my personality.. i am friends for some times with all my ex gfs.. they
don't find me attractive at first.. 2 ex gfs are my friends for more then a year..
not trying to boast, the 2 ex gfs who are older then me initiate their feelings to
me.. so i'm really feel honoured... i dare not say i am a very nice guy, i do swear
when i'm outside with my buddies.. we don't meant it and its a guy thing and
we're just too comfortable with each others.. i just a bit better then most guys
cos i stick to my own principles..

well, as much as i trying to be positive, the world is indeed becoming more and
more "negative".. you read more and more negatives news each day and the news
get worse and worse each day.. its dis-heartening at times, and can be quite a
challenge to continue staying positive in life..

i don't see money so importantly in my life.. yes money is important, but i placed
it out of my top 5 lists.. again i doubt many people think alike.. the top 5 important
things in my life (not in order) are family kinship, love, religion, friendship and
principle.. 亲情，爱情，友情，宗教，原则。

i will not betray or give in to money for any of the above.. i used to have an old
friend who said that everyone have a price.. i remembered telling him that i do not
have a price.. cos money is not the top priority in life.. he does not believe me..
to him, everyone has a price, just different in price.. and so i asked him: "will he
betray me for a million dollars?" guess what? he say yes without thinking.. lolz..
although i know that it is impossible that such thing will happen, but i still feel a
bit of sadness.. i guess many people will say yes too.. maybe you're laughing at
me for being stupid, yes i am also laughing at you.. :P

woa, did not realised that i'd blogged so much.. maybe i'll stop blogging some day..
especially when i interact mostly on facebook now.. catch me on facebook then..
oh, i also started my 2nd blog some years ago on health and well-being.. feel free
to take a surf at http://path-to-well-being.blogspot.com.. i have more followers there
too.. ;)

lastly, let me end with a short poem i wrote recently..


theoretically an intelligent being
seeking happiness and fleeting dreams
lacking control to endless desires
incognisant of hell's burning fire

engulfed by greed blinded by delusions
ignorantly wounded in selfish actions
loosing control to eternal cycles
incognisant of one's inner heaven

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Monday, 14 January 2013

极乐世界到底存在不存在

一些人总是怀疑极乐世界的真实性，并用佛祖《金刚经》里“凡所有相皆是虚妄”来否定
极乐世界的存在，从而信心不足，不愿意往生。这是片面理解佛经的结果。佛祖说法
善巧方便，绝不妄语。佛祖说法看对象、看时机，所说的法有究竟了义和不究竟了义，
但都是为了当机的听众能够理解、接受，进而修行得法以至最终成就。所以虽然佛经
数量庞大，但并不是每个经都适合每个人去学。也不能拿佛祖的某个经里的某个说法去
否定另一个经中的另一种说法，给自己造成“互相矛盾”的印象。就像对3岁儿童和80岁
老人说同一件事但讲法不会一样是一个道理。就是因为听众的理解方式和接受能力不同，
能够领会的角度和范围就会不一样，所以佛祖善巧地针对学生们的特点，从而讲话的角度
和述及的范围也不同。但就其当时讲话的时机和对象来说都是真理，都是为了他们将来的
究竟解脱。

我们后人在学习佛经的时侯，要抱有至诚的恭敬心，纯正的学习态度，在全盘不带个人
成见的前提下研读佛经，这样才能比较容易地看到和理解如来的真实意。那么，西方极乐
世界到底有没有？这里就存在一个判断其有无的视角的问题。《金刚经》说：“凡所有相
皆是虚妄”、“一切有为法如梦幻泡影。如露亦如电。应作如是观。”，“一切法无所有。
毕竟空。不可得。”这几句话是佛经的根本义——“空性”。《金刚经》又是佛祖所说法中
金刚不坏之究竟了义，即一切经法之根本。所以说，《金刚经》说的法，其所站角度是
最根本、最究竟、最终极的真理！其所说的状态是佛性的最根本状态、真实状态、也是
最不容易被我们所理解、体会和达到的究竟圆满状态、最顶级状态。打个比方，就像是
描述一个没有任何一丝儿波纹的平静至极的大海，我们将其称为最理想状态——“空”！
也就是：既能生万法（妙有）但却无实质（真空）的“空性”状态，也可以叫作“佛性”、
“自性”、“真如本性”、“清净圆明体”、“无极”等等都是指它。但这种“一丝儿波纹
都不起的大海”是极为不容易理解和达到的，也就是究竟圆满的一真法界！

佛说宇宙中有无数个大千世界。宇宙中各种维次空间是无量的，但从三维的角度看，
此庞大的三维世界中，各种天体在规律运行着。我们的地球就是佛祖所称的“阎浮提”、
“娑婆世界”所在地。对我们处于三维空间的众生的感知能力来讲，地球，的确是
“眼见为实”的，是“真实”存在着的。因为，在这里，我们的眼、耳、鼻、舌、身、
意都能实实在在地感知到这个世界的存在和持续。站在地球上，就有此世界的时间和
空间的概念和感受，它有历史有未来有山水有动植物有等等等等。对此时的我们来说：
地球不是梦幻泡影，不是“如露亦如电”。但你能就此说佛法说错了吗？不能！原因如下：
假如我们能够与这个地球同寿，就会看到地球的成住坏空过程。对人类来讲，地球的
成住坏空是一个相当漫长的时间长河。而站在地球的角度来讲，人类的存在历史就像是
白驹过隙，瞬间即过，我们的存在对地球来说就是一个刹那微尘，是“如露亦如电”。
那么地球相对于银河系来讲，也只是一个微尘，同样道理也是银河系里的“如露亦如电”。
而银河系相对于整个宇宙来讲，是不是如此呢？当然是！宇宙是无限大的，银河系在
宇宙中也只是一个微尘，从三维世界的时间、空间角度认识宇宙的话，宇宙就是极为
无边又漫长几乎永存的，银河系于其中也仅仅是“如露亦如电”。然而宇宙也有其成、
住、坏、空的过程，那将是更为漫长难以想象的状况------

现在回过头来看，相对于整个宇宙，我们的地球是不是仅仅是一个微尘呢？当然是了，
是“如露亦如电”的。再想想我们这个肉身的存在时间，是不是连个电都算不上？！
同样道理，站在无始劫以来无数宇宙成、住、坏、空的角度来说，虽然极乐世界的
存在寿命比地球无量长久，但在整个宇宙长河中也只是一个微尘，其存在也是暂时的，
也可以被称为“如露亦如电”、“梦幻泡影”。然而，整个宇宙却是在我们的“心”中！
也就是在我们的“自性”中！我们的“心”过去无始、未来无终，整个宇宙对我们的“心”
来讲，有其成、住、坏、空，也是如露亦如电！也就算是一个微尘。佛祖讲的：
“凡所有相皆是虚妄------如露亦如电”就是站在我们的“心”的角度来说的！所以，
如果站在“空性”的角度去理解，极乐世界就是“虚妄”的，这就是某些学人总是认为
西方极乐净土非“实有”，只认可自心净土从而不愿意往生的根本原因。

然而，对目前三维世界的我们的感官来说，你能说地球是“虚妄”的、“如露亦如电”
的吗？当然不能！所以，极乐世界亦如此！那么极乐世界到底在哪里？佛祖讲了：
“过此世界十万亿佛国土，有世界名曰极乐”，而且那个世界是如何如何美妙。我要
强调的是，佛不妄语！佛在这里说这个“西方极乐世界”对当下的我们来说是真实存在的！
绝不是画饼充饥！绝不是用比喻和抽象的方法讲一个虚幻的假象来安慰地球上的弟子们的！
对地球上的我们来说，极乐世界真实存在，极乐世界就象我们地球存在的真实性一样，
是另一个存在着的世界！一个极其美好的世界！地球对我们三维世界的人是真实存在的，
而极乐世界对我们以及对他们那里的人来讲也都是真实而永久地存在着的！阿弥陀佛
现出身来在那里，亲自给那里的修行人讲佛法直到他们都成佛。所以，我们千万不要怀疑！

有人要问，极乐世界我们看不见摸不着，我们现在是脚踏实地生活在地球上，怎样才能
到达十万亿佛土以外的西方极乐呢？这里要说明一个众多人疑惑不解的最关键之处，
那就是：不是我们的肉身“飞”到极乐世界去，而是我们的心识、灵识、也可以叫“灵魂”
或“神识”，还有道教所讲的“识神”、“魂魄”。借助阿弥陀佛的大威神力瞬间相合到达
极乐世界。所谓“生则一定生、去则实不去”，为什么？“生则一定生”是指神识一定会
去生到极乐世界，“去则实不去”是指肉身却没有去，仍然留在娑婆世界上，留给其他人
看得到。就象你的心思从脚上移动到了手上，你用肉眼能看到吗？众生与佛都是共同
一个法身，共同一个自性，打比方说：大海是佛，众生是海上的波浪，但众生的根本来
源是大海，佛觉悟了真理后就用佛经告诉我们宇宙人生的真相和修行成佛的方法，
让我们回归大海，回归佛性。

因为极乐世界就在我们的自性中，是我们的自性变现的，也就是在我们的法身中，
极乐世界和娑婆世界都是我们自己法身中暂时的“内部构件”，是我们自己法身的一部分，
就象头脑感知脚趾头和感知手指头是一样的速度和方法。极乐世界和娑婆世界就象手指头
和脚趾头的关系，你不能说手指头就是脚趾头，所谓“心净则佛土净”就象是说你感知
手指头与感知脚趾头的感知能力是一样的，只要那根感知神经没有损坏就可以，手上的
“疼痛”和脚上的“疼痛”是一样的，都是“疼痛”。对我们这个地球上的人类的五官来讲，
极乐世界是另一个星球，在娑婆世界的西方，那个星球是无量寿存在的，比地球要长久得
多的多，那里的人是莲花化生的金刚不坏身，比我们这里人的寿命要长久得多的多，
是无量寿。

那么从娑婆世界到极乐世界相隔十万亿佛国土怎么就瞬间到达了呢？心识的速度是“没有”
速度，也就是速度之快到了感知不到的程度，比光速要快得多！例如，你自己的手脚，
看似相隔（手非脚、脚非手），实则一体（同体共身）。如果手被扎疼了，你的心会
注意在手上，这时突然脚又被扎了，你的心马上就会转向脚，而瞬间顾不上手的疼痛，
心的这个“转移”你是无意识间完成的，那个快速而准确你自己也说不出道理来，但它就是
这么快速而准确。这就是你心的作用和能力，它就是这么快而准。那么从娑婆世界到
极乐世界也是这个道理，这两个世界都在你自己的法身中，你的心识心思如果粘连、
执著在这个地球上的时侯，你是到达不了极乐世界的。

只要你的心想到了极乐世界、一心一意地想往极乐世界，你的心识才能到达极乐世界，
只要那根神经是通的就行，而这根神经就是——信愿念佛


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dreamed of racing on 4:53 pm

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Friday, 11 January 2013

sometimes i really feel that i am very different from the norm.. its look like i am
the odd one out.. my thinking is different from most, my life style is different,
so much so that i ask myself many times, why do people do this or do that..

i yearn for a better govt, but many others don't give a damn about politics..
i work hard and take on 2 jobs and others questioning me why do i have to work
so hard.. some people just don't think about their future..

i make saving every month, and friends ask me why do i keep so much money
in the bank? i should spend it and enjoy myself.. and to clarify, i don't earn a lot
and i also do not have a lot of money in bank.. my little saving can't even allow me
to buy a public hdb flat when i reach 35 due to the sky-high hdb price and govt
policies.. if i don't have saving, it will be worse..

i see friends buying branded goods for their love ones.. or friends posting expensive
items they bought on facebook.. well, i don't do that.. cos i don't buy branded stuff..
they are really a waste of money.. yes, it stroke their ego and pride maybe..
but to me, ego is nothing.. i am no one, i don't need to show anyone what i have,
nor do i need anyone approval.. but many people suffer on the hand of ego..

i have people around me "wanted face" badly.. they can't "lose face" and wanted
to have car, branded stuff etc even though they're running in debts.. i am saying
the truth.. kinda feel sad for them.. i don't know, maybe they're laughing behind me
for being "poor", where in actual fact, they're the one who are poor.. yes, i am not
rich, but i am not in debt..

many people are selfish and don't appreciate, thus making the whole society even
uglier.. people take your kindness for granted, and will only help when it benefit them..
people are lacking of self-control and can do anything for money, which make the
whole society focusing too much on material wealth.. the more people focusing on
wealth, the more materialistic people become..

yet, i know all these are "normal".. they're a part of the cycle.. human kind is getting
worse, its nature.. life is nothing but a dream.. life is all about waking up and see
everything as it is.. without prejudice.. may all being wake up one day and all be one..

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dreamed of racing on 11:56 pm

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